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I tried on shorts for the first time in three years last week, and I ended up sitting down on the changing room floor. Not because they didn't fit. They fit fine. That was almost the problem. I finally weighed what I'd wanted to weigh for a decade. And there I was, looking at my own thighs under that awful fitting room light, feeling worse than I did before I lost anything. If I'm being completely honest, for about a week after that, I regretted the whole thing. Not the choice to get healthier. Just that moment. The one where you expect to finally feel proud, and instead you feel like your body's played a trick on you. My thighs looked like a jumper that had been stretched out at the cuffs and never bounced back into shape. Loose. Slack. Not mine, somehow, even though they were the only legs I had. Nobody warns you about that part before you start. I'd tried to get ahead of it, or so I thought. An oil everyone in the comments swore by, which made my legs shiny for about an hour and did nothing else. A stiff body brush I used before every shower like a ritual, because someone online promised it would help. One of those rollers that promised the world and gave my arm more of a workout than my legs ever got. Two other pairs of compression leggings before this one, both pricey, because compression was apparently the thing everyone agreed on. They squeezed the same amount everywhere, ankle to hip, and by mid afternoon they'd rolled down to somewhere near my knees. I ended up finding Cellumove myself, close to midnight, googling the same three words for what felt like the hundredth time. I nearly closed the tab. I'd already decided compression was compression. This wasn't the same as what I'd already written off. The pressure isn't the same the whole way up. It's graduated, tightest at the ankle and easing as it climbs, so instead of squeezing everything equally, it actually holds the loose skin against my leg instead of letting it hang and drag with every step. It supports the blood flow too, so my legs don't turn heavy and tired by the time I'm cooking dinner. I want to be straight about how long this took, because I'm done with anything that promises overnight. Nothing happened in week one. Or week three. It took about two months of wearing them nearly every day before I actually felt and saw a difference while they were on. My legs started looking held instead of hanging. Getting dressed stopped being the low point of my day. The skin is still there. It hasn't gone anywhere. When I take them off at night, it's still loose in the same places, and I'm still on this road, same as I was in that changing room. But I don't regret it the way I did that week. Because for the first time since I lost the weight, my legs feel like they're actually mine again while I've got them on. Held. Not something I have to brace myself to look at. I'm not writing this to convince you of anything. But if you've ever done the hard work and ended up sitting on a changing room floor instead of celebrating, I left the link on this post. Not so you go through what I went through that day. So you've got one less thing to sit with.