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At his checkup a year ago I finally asked how much most boys his age grow in a year. About 2 and a half inches, the doctor said. Mine had grown 1 and a half, 3 years running, and she called that "perfectly normal for him" as if I should be relieved. I drove home thinking about the inch he was missing every year, and whether it had to keep going missing. Ethan was 12 that day. 4'6", the shortest boy in his class, and the funniest person in any room he has ever walked into. I do the books for a heating and plumbing company. 9 vans, 14 people, and the whole of my job is noticing when a number is not what it is supposed to be. I can tell you to the cent what we paid for a water heater 4 years ago. I sat in that room, was handed a number that was an inch short, and said thank you. I did that 3 times. Here is what an inch a year looks like from the outside, which is the only place I could see it from. At 9 he was small and it was cute. People said it in the voice people use for small children. At 10 he was small and nobody said anything. At 11 his friends came back from the summer taller. Not all of them and not by a lot, but enough that the order of them had changed and he was at the end of it. My kitchen was full of them one afternoon that first week, all of them standing around eating cereal out of my bowls, and I watched him work out that he was looking up at boys he used to look straight at. He did not say one word about it, then or since. At 12 he stopped taking his shoes off in other people's houses. That one took me months to notice, because who watches that. His friend Aaron's mom mentioned it to me at a pickup, kindly, half laughing. "He keeps his shoes on. Is he alright?" I said he was fine and I said something about him being funny about his socks, and I got into my car and sat there with my hands on the wheel, because I knew exactly what it was. His shoes have a thick sole. That is the entire reason. He also stopped waiting for adults to ask him his age. He would just say it, first thing, flat, before anyone had a chance to guess. "I'm 12." He was getting ahead of it. A 12 year old had worked out that being corrected about your own age in front of people is worse than announcing it. He used to do voices at the dinner table. Our neighbor, his coach, me on the phone to the accountant, which killed my parents every time. He is very good at it. He has not done one at that table in over a year. That is the part nobody warns you about. Not the height. The fact that a specific, particular kid you know every millimeter of just quietly puts himself away, one piece at a time, and the pieces are so small that each one on its own sounds like nothing. The school does an evening where you get 10 minutes with each teacher. His English teacher had a good report, said he was bright and that he did not raise his hand as much as he used to, and then, warmly, as a kindness, said, "He's one of the younger ones, isn't he." He is not. He is one of the oldest in that class. I said, "He's actually one of the oldest," and she said "Oh!" and we both laughed and moved on to his book report, and I did not sleep properly that night. And at family lunches my brother Dean says, "He'll shoot up, they all do," and my mother agrees with him, and everybody takes another helping, and the subject is gone. I know it's a silly thing to be made over. I do. He is healthy. There is nothing wrong with him, and every checkup for 3 years has said so, and I have sat in my car outside that office actually grateful for it, because I know what other parents are being told in those rooms. I have friends who would trade problems with me in a heartbeat. But I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can, and nearly everything I had tried so far was aimed at how he felt about it. I told him height does not matter. I gave him the list of short men who did fine, which every parent of a short boy can recite by heart and which has never once helped anybody. I signed him up for things that were supposed to make him feel bigger inside. I told him the kids who say things are the ones with the problem, which is true, and which has never once repaired a single thing on the drive home. I did the whole confidence program, every night, and it is not nothing. It kept him going. It also never touched the actual thing. That is the sentence I got to on the drive home from that checkup, doing the only kind of thinking I am actually good at. He is 1 inch a year behind, which over the 3 years comes to 3 inches he should have had and does not. On their chart it is a line that has been drifting the wrong way since he was 9. I had never been in a position to work that out, because I had never had the other number to put his beside, and now I did. If he stops growing at 16 there are 3 or 4 more years of this still coming. It will not be an exact inch each time, because nothing about a child is exact, but there is no year in there where it stops happening on its own. It was not a tragedy and it was not an illness. It was inches going missing at a rate, while I sat in a chair and said thank you. And the question I could not put down was the one no one had answered, because I had never thought to ask it out loud: what actually decides that number? Am I worrying for nothing? Maybe. But nobody had ever told me what sets the rate. They had only ever told me his was normal for him. So I looked it up, and the first thing I found reorganized everything. All of a child's height is built in one place, and it is much smaller than I had pictured. Not the bones. 2 thin bands of cartilage near the ends of them, called growth plates. Bone gets longer when the cells inside those plates divide. That is the whole factory. Every inch Ethan will ever have comes off that production line, and then the plates close and the line shuts down for good. And those cells do not divide on their own. They divide when they are told to. Which is the bit I had never heard in my life. There is a signal. It has a volume. And the number the doctor reads off the chart once a year is that volume, printed as inches. Everyone has heard of growth hormone. I had. What I did not know is that growth hormone never goes anywhere near a growth plate. It goes to the liver, and the liver sends out a second thing, IGF-1, the growth factor that does the work growth hormone gets the credit for. IGF-1 is what arrives at the plate and tells the cells to get on with it. Growth hormone gives the order. IGF-1 is the one that carries it. It is the difference between a car having fuel in it and somebody turning the key. And a child with nothing wrong with him at all can be running that signal lower than the boy sitting next to him. There is no test on the standard panel that goes looking for it. It is just less building, quietly, for years, while everybody keeps saying he's fine. He is fine. He was always fine. That was never the question I was asking. His doctor is good. She was answering the question she gets paid to answer, which is whether anything is wrong with him, and nothing is. "Perfectly normal for him" is an accurate description of a chart. But it is not a plan. It is the only sentence in medicine I can think of that takes a shortfall and hands it back to you as good news, and the shortfall was the thing I came in about. Then I found the study that ended the argument I had been having with myself. 40 healthy kids, boys and girls, none of them short of zinc to begin with, nothing wrong with any of them. Half got 10mg of zinc a day for 3 months and half got a dummy pill, and nobody involved knew which child was getting which until it was over. In the zinc group, IGF-1 went up. In the other group, it did not move. Well-fed, healthy, ordinary children, and the growth signal still went up. Which quietly finishes off the thing I had said to myself a hundred times, and that 2 separate people had said to me out loud. "He eats well, he doesn't need anything." Those children ate well too. And a second trial measured the thing itself instead of the signal. 140 school kids, half on zinc and half on a dummy pill, for 6 months, with height as what the study was built to find out. Over those 6 months the zinc group grew nearly a fifth more than the other group. And these were ordinary children nobody would have said needed anything, eating the way mine eats, carrying the same clean bill of health he gets handed every year. Which means his rate is not a fact about him, the way his eye color is a fact about him. It is something his body does, day after day, out of whatever it has to work with. That is the part that stopped me, and not the size of the number: a thing being done can be done better, and a fact about him cannot. I am 5'5". His father Greg is 5'10". Neither of those is tall and neither of those is short. Every time this comes up, somebody at the table says he takes after someone, and when I ask which someone, the room produces nobody. My mother offers a grandfather. My brother agrees about the grandfather. I have seen photographs of the grandfather. He was 5'9" and he is standing next to a horse. Genes were never the explanation in our family. They were the thing we said instead of an explanation, because it is the polite thing to say and because it means nobody has to do anything. I am not going to tell you height is not genetic. Of course it is. You can look at a family and see it. What I will say is that in our house it was never an explanation. It was a shrug with a science word on it, and nobody had ever once held it up against the boy it was supposed to explain. Whatever Ethan was handed, how much of it he actually uses is being decided in the plates, out of whatever is available to them, for as long as they stay open. He is 11 inches shorter than I am. Something is deciding that, and it is not a grandfather standing next to a horse. The next thing I did was go and think properly about what I had actually been giving him, which was milk and a bottle of store-brand kids' multivitamin gummies I had been buying for 6 years without ever once turning it around. Mostly it was calcium, and years of it: every glass, every yogurt, the cheese he likes and the cheese he pretends to like. Only about a quarter of the calcium a child eats gets absorbed at all. Most of it goes straight through. And the part that does get absorbed only crosses the gut wall because vitamin D3 pushes it across, and D3 does not arrive ready to work. It arrives shut. It has to be switched on in 2 steps, in the liver and the kidneys, and every one of the enzymes that does that switching runs on magnesium. D3 turns up in a sealed box, and magnesium is the thing that opens the box. So you can be diligently handing over calcium and vitamin D for years and have neither of them arrive. That is the smaller of the 2 problems. Because the calcium that does get into the bloodstream still has to be told where to go. There is a protein that does that job and only that job. It is called osteocalcin, it grabs calcium, pulls it out of the blood and locks it into bone, and nothing else in the body will do it for you. Osteocalcin also arrives switched off. The body makes it inert, the way a new smoke alarm comes in the box with no battery in it. What switches it on is vitamin K2. Without K2 the calcium is in there. It is circulating. It is just clean laundry sitting on a chair that nobody ever puts away. It is not missing, it is only never going to reach a bone, and handing over more calcium does not change that. Which is the answer to every glass of milk I stood over. There was never a supply problem in my kitchen. There was a direction problem, and you cannot fix a direction problem by pouring more in. And then the last one, which I had never thought about at all. Bone is not a solid lump of mineral. About a third of it is collagen, a flexible frame, and the mineral sets onto the frame. The frame goes up first. Mineral with no frame is cake mix poured onto the counter. Vitamin C is what makes collagen possible at all. The enzymes that build the fibers cannot work without it, and the chain falls apart inside the cell before it is ever used, no matter how much protein a child eats. By the end of all that I could write down what a thing would have to do, and it was 3 jobs and not one. Turn the signal up in a child who has nothing wrong with him. Get the calcium absorbed and then actually directed into bone instead of past it. And build the frame for the mineral to set on. All 3. At the amounts that were actually used in the studies, and in the kind a child's body can actually take up rather than pass straight out again, which is where most of what is sold for children quietly fails. And it would have to happen while the plates are open, because that is the only window there is. And nobody can tell you how long that window is. Plates close somewhere between 15 and 18 in boys. It is not the birthday that decides, it is how far along the skeleton already is, which can run ahead of a child or behind him. A pair of 13 year olds can be 2 years apart in how much building time is left and there is nothing on the outside to tell you which is which. So there is no deadline anyone can show you. There is a range, and your child is somewhere in it, and the time is being spent right now at whatever rate his body is currently running. Then I picked up the gummy bottle and read the back of it against what I had been reading for weeks, and it was a bad 10 minutes. There was no K2 in it at all, and the zinc was a token next to the amount in the trial. I had been handing him that every morning for 6 years and feeling organized about it. So I went and looked at the things actually sold for height, and it was mostly the same bottle with a taller child on the front. I had also already bought one thing off the internet, years ago, with a picture of a cheerful tall boy on it, and I had nothing to show for it except the feeling of having been sold something. That feeling is not stupid. It is the correct response to that shelf. So I did the thing I do at work when a supplier's paperwork does not say enough, which is to email them and ask. I wrote to 4 companies with the same 2 questions: how much zinc is in a serving, and which form each thing in the bottle is in. One never wrote back. One sent me a paragraph about their commitment to children's wellness and did not answer either question. One answered the first question and went quiet on the second, which answered the second. The last one answered both of them in 2 lines and did not try to sell me anything in the process. It was called Grow Spark. It does the 3 jobs and it does not pretend to do anything else. Zinc for the signal, D3 with magnesium so the calcium gets in, K2 so it gets put away, and vitamin C for the frame. The zinc is 10mg, the amount from the trial. The K2 is MK-7, which is the form of it that actually gets into the blood, the zinc and the magnesium are both citrate rather than oxide, and every dose is printed instead of hidden inside a blend. Which meant I could sit there with the studies still open and check the amounts against them one at a time. That took about 4 minutes, and it is the only part of any of this I could verify myself without trusting anybody. It is a chewable tablet, 2 of them every morning, and the bottle lives next to the coffee so that remembering is my job and not his. I told him it was a new vitamin. He has taken them every morning since, and the whole thing has been about as interesting to him as the coffee. By 2 months I knew exactly as much as I had known in the first week. Twice that month I caught myself trying to work out whether anything was happening, on numbers I did not have, which is not a thing I do. The next figure anybody was going to hand me was a checkup away, in the same chair, from the same doctor. So I got on with the year. Around month 3 we were at Aaron's house and he took his shoes off in the hallway. I do not think he decided to. He just did it, the way he used to, and then went off into the kitchen, and I stood in that hallway for a second like an idiot. Around month 5 Dean said it again at a family lunch. "He'll shoot up, they all do." Same voice, same helping of potatoes, and for the first time in 3 years it did not make me want to leave the table. He was going to turn out to be right. He just had nothing whatsoever to do with why. Around month 6 I noticed he had stopped announcing his age. Greg noticed around month 8, which for Greg is fast. He said, "Is he up to my shoulder now?" and I said, "He's been up to your shoulder for a while," which was not entirely true but I enjoyed saying it. And then one night he did our neighbor at the dinner table, the whole thing, the walk and the hands, and my mother laughed until she had to put her fork down. He is 13 and there are still plenty of boys in that class taller than him, and I am not going to pretend otherwise. What has changed is that the gap stopped opening and started closing. When my kitchen fills up with his friends now, there are 2 or 3 of them he can look straight at. And he takes his shoes off in other people's hallways again. At his checkup last month I asked the doctor the same question I asked a year ago. How much do most boys his age grow in a year? About 2 and a half inches, she said. Then she looked at the screen and said, "He's done 3 and three quarters this year." He had not had an ordinary year of growing since his chart started drifting. He had just done a year and a half of one. And then she said something nobody had ever said to me about him. He had come up 6 percentiles. I asked her to say it again so I could write it down. She must have thought that was strange. I have 4 years of appointments in which the only thing I ever wrote down was the date of the next one. She said it was a good year for him. She did not say late bloomer. I said thank you, and this time I meant something different by it. If you have been told your child is perfectly healthy, and perfectly normal for him, and you have gone home from that appointment satisfied and unsatisfied at the same time, you already know why I am writing this down. Nothing was wrong with my son. There is still nothing wrong with him. He was just building at a rate nobody had ever offered to look at, in years that were going to run out whether anyone looked or not. That is the part that actually scares me now, looking back. Not that I did the wrong thing. That I did the confidence thing, every night, and it was only ever half the job, and the other half was running the whole time with nobody watching it. The plates close when they close. Whatever growing he does this year, he does at this year's rate, and a year that nobody supported is not made up for by the year after it, because that one is running at its own rate too. Then they shut. There is only ever what got built while they were open. If he is still growing, you have some of that window left and no way of seeing how much. It is 2 chewables in the morning. There is a 60 day money back guarantee, no questions asked, which is a great deal less than the waiting has already cost us. https://mortaine.co/pages/5-reasons-grow-spark-nf P.S. If you have a daughter rather than a son, none of this is any different for her. The same 3 jobs, in the same plates, and she has less time to do them in than he does. P.P.S. The number I wish somebody had handed me 3 years earlier was not his. It was the ordinary one, the one every other boy his age was quietly doing. You cannot see a shortfall until you know what it is a shortfall from, and in all those appointments nobody ever volunteered it. So ask at the next one. How much does a child his age usually gain in a year, and how much did he gain. It takes 20 seconds, they have both numbers on the screen in front of them, and you will not be able to unhear the answer.