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My Sister Stopped Wearing Sandals to the Family Barbecue Three Years Ago. She Had Been a Swim Instructor for Thirty-Four Years. The Water Had Been Her Life. Last September a Woman I Had Never Met Told Me Something at a Funeral That Finally Made Me Understand What Had Happened at the Edge of the Pool. I am writing this because Pauline texted me on a Sunday morning last weekend. She said her daughter had been asking about us. She wanted to know if I had ever written down what we talked about on the bench behind the church hall. I told her I would. I am writing it down now. For her daughter. For Pauline. For Carla. For Harriet. For the next sister who has been watching her sister walk past a pair of sandals in her own closet and pretending she has not been watching. I am Annette. I am sixty-three years old. I retired four years ago after thirty-one years as an elementary school music teacher in our school district. I have a sister named Harriet for sixty-five years. Most people call her Harriet. I have called her Hattie since we were girls. She is sixty-seven. She retired four years ago after thirty-four years as a swim instructor. She ran her own small lessons business out of the community pool for thirty-two of those years. We each have grown daughters. Between us five grandchildren. The oldest grandchild is eleven. I want to tell you about the sandals. Because the sandals are what I had been carrying alone for three years before Pauline sat down on a bench behind a church hall with me last September. I want to back up first and tell you who Harriet was for the thirty-four years before she retired. Harriet was a swim instructor. She had been a swim instructor for thirty-four years. She had been barefoot at the edge of the pool for thirty-four years. She had owned every kind of sandal a swim instructor owns. The pool slides. The flip-flops. The water shoes. The good leather sandals for the summer weddings. She had a small collection of sandals in her closet. She had built a shoe rack in the closet to line them up so they sat on the wall like a display. Bare feet had been her entire professional life. She had also, for thirty-five years, been the one who hosted the family barbecue every summer. She went out barefoot on the first Saturday in July. She did the grill. She did the yard games. She did the swimming with the grandchildren. She did it all in one day. She came inside at sunset. She did it every summer. I had been watching her do it for thirty-five years. I had been the sister in the backyard with the lemonade watching my sister move across the grass in her sandals for thirty-five years. I want to tell you about the first Saturday in July three years ago. It was a warm morning. About eighty degrees. The kind of morning when the grass is already dry by nine. Harriet had set the folding chairs up next to the patio at about nine in the morning. She had the swimming towels laid out on the deck the way she always laid them out. I had been making lemonade in the kitchen. I came out the back door with two glasses of lemonade. Harriet had been standing at the edge of the pool. She had been standing at the edge of the pool for a few seconds longer than she needed to be standing there. I had not been looking at her at first. I had been balancing the two glasses and watching where I was putting my feet on the deck steps. When I looked up, she was at the edge of the pool. Standing still. Both hands at her sides. She was looking down at her feet. I said: "Hattie. Are you okay?" She said: "Annette. I am fine. I am just feeling a little off. I am going to sit down for a minute." She stepped back from the pool. She stood on the deck for a moment. She said: "Annette. I am going to go inside and put on my sneakers. My feet feel funny in the sandals today. I am going to come back out." She went inside. She sat in the kitchen for an hour. She came back out at ten. She was wearing sneakers and long socks. She stayed in the sneakers the whole barbecue. She did not go in the water. She said: "Annette. I am going to have my daughter's girl do the swimming with the little ones this year. My feet are just tired." Her granddaughter did all the pool games. She was nineteen. She did it in about three hours. Harriet stayed on the deck in her sneakers. I stood in the backyard with my lemonade and watched a nineteen-year-old take over the swimming. The next summer she wore the sneakers. Last summer she wore the sneakers. The sandals had been on the rack in the closet for three years. Harriet had walked past them most days of her life. She had not worn them. I want to tell you what I knew and what I had not been letting myself know about her feet. Harriet had not been telling me what had happened at the edge of the pool that first July. She had been telling me her feet were tired from the sandals. I had been telling myself the same thing. But I had been her sister for sixty-five years. I had been the one who had sat with her at the community pool for thirty-two years. I had heard Harriet talk about her feet. I had heard her talk about the older women in the trade. I had heard what she had said about the instructors she had known who had stopped going barefoot at the pool. I had known what the edge of the pool had meant. She had seen something on her feet. She had not told me what it had been. I had not asked. We had not been talking about it for three years. Harriet's toenails had been getting worse for about four years. She had a magnifying mirror. She had bought it three years before she retired. She had been looking at her feet every morning at the bathroom counter at seven thirty for over six years. She had been writing notes in a small notebook she kept in the drawer next to the mirror. I had been looking at the notebook on the mornings when Harriet was in the shower or out at the mailbox. I had not told Harriet I had been looking. The nails had been getting thicker and yellower for four years. Harriet had been going to Dr. Pellegrini every six months. Dr. Pellegrini had been telling Harriet at her last two visits that they were going to need to seriously talk about a treatment. Harriet had been telling Dr. Pellegrini she wanted to keep doing the home care. Harriet had been doing the home care. Soaking her feet forty minutes a day, six days a week. Filing the nails. Painting on the drugstore lacquer. Eating the way our niece's mother had told us we should be eating since she had moved here from Greece five years ago. The nails had stayed getting worse. Harriet had been buying time. Dr. Pellegrini had been giving her time. Two cycles in a row. Harriet had also, over the last three years, been quietly handing other things to other people. The Saturday morning water aerobics with Carla at the rec center. Harriet and Carla had been going together every Saturday morning from April through October for thirty-eight years. About two and a half years ago, Harriet had started begging off. She had told Carla she had errands. She had not had errands. Carla had been calling Harriet every Friday evening for two and a half years to invite her. Harriet had been saying no. The pedicure chair. Harriet had stopped going to get her nails done about two years ago. She had loved the salon down the street. She had gone every month for years. She had stopped going because she had not wanted anyone to see her feet. The recliner at eight. Harriet had been staying up until ten for thirty-eight years. About two years ago, she had started falling asleep in her recliner at eight in the evening, exhausted from the daily soaking and filing that never worked. She had been waking up at one in the morning and going up to bed at one fifteen. The way she had been carrying herself. She had been keeping her feet tucked under the chair when she sat. She had stopped kicking off her shoes the way she used to kick off her shoes. She had been a woman who moved like she was hiding something. I had been watching all of it. I had not been telling anyone. I had been carrying it alone for two and a half years. In September last year, Eileen died. Eileen had been a swim instructor in our town for forty-some years. Eileen and Harriet had worked together on dozens of lessons over thirty years. Harriet did the little ones. Eileen did the adult classes. They had been close. We had all been close. Vivian and I had been in the same book club for fifteen years. Eileen had died on her couch on a Sunday afternoon at sixty-eight. Vivian had walked into the living room with two glasses of iced tea and had found her. The funeral was on a Thursday. Harriet had been too torn up to come. She had said she would come to the wake on Wednesday. She had not come to the wake. She had been in her recliner that whole weekend before the funeral. The news had been on at low volume. She had not been crying. She had been sitting. I had driven out to the funeral alone on Thursday morning. I had sat in the third row of the church. After the service, I had gone to the reception in the church hall. I had been at the coffee table pouring myself a cup of coffee when a woman I had seen across the church but had not recognized came up to me. She was about my age. She had a small plate in her hand. She said: "Are you Annette?" I said: "I am." She said: "I am Pauline. I am Carla's sister. Carla has been Harriet's water aerobics partner for thirty-eight years. I do not think we have ever met. But Carla has been talking about Harriet for almost two years." I said: "Pauline. Yes. I have known about you. I did not know your face." She said: "Annette. Can we sit down somewhere quiet? I want to talk to you about something." We went out to the small garden behind the church hall. There was a stone bench under a dogwood tree. We sat down. Pauline set her coffee on the bench between us. She said: "Annette. Carla has been quietly worried about Harriet for almost two years. She has been calling Harriet every Friday evening for two and a half years to invite her to the rec center. Harriet has been saying no every Friday for two and a half years." I said: "Pauline. I know. I have heard the phone." She said: "Annette. Carla has been telling me that she thinks something is wrong with Harriet. She has not known how to bring it up. Women of their generation do not bring those things up." She paused. She said: "Annette. I want to tell you about Carla. Will you let me?" I said: "Yes, Pauline." Pauline told me about Carla for the next forty-five minutes. She told me Carla had been on the same trajectory four years ago that I had been watching Harriet be on. Her toenails had been getting worse for years. Her podiatrist had been recommending a treatment. She had been buying time. She had been avoiding things. She told me about Carla at the edge of the pool in her backyard at sixty-five, standing still, stepping back, not saying why. She told me about Carla not going to the rec center with Harriet on Saturday mornings. She told me, sitting on the bench behind the church hall, that Carla had been doing what Harriet had been doing. She told me Carla had finally agreed to talk to her podiatrist about the nails about two and a half years ago. She told me she had been the one who had read about the supplement at that point. She told me she had landed on a small company called Orgatics. She said: "Annette. Carla's podiatrist had been very clear with us. The regular foot care was still the primary thing. But the supplement was in the additive layer. The supplement supported the body's natural response to fungus from the inside, supported healthy circulation to the feet, supported the body's natural defenses, and supported the body's own ability to reach the nail bed. The active compounds, the carvacrol in wild Mediterranean oregano oil and the thymoquinone in cold-pressed black seed oil, had been studied for their natural properties. Orgatics cold-pressed at low temperatures, which preserved the active compounds. The softgels were a deep, dark amber when you opened the bottle. That color was the oil, intact." She said: "I brought the bottle to Carla's podiatrist before she started. Her podiatrist said it was a sensible thing to add. Add it to what she was already doing. Don't change anything else. The supplement does not replace the foot care. The supplement supports the layer around it." Carla had been on both for two and a half years. Pauline told me, sitting on the bench, that Carla had been back at the rec center every Saturday morning for two years. She told me Carla had been wearing sandals in her backyard again. She told me, more quietly, that Eileen had died on her couch yesterday at sixty-eight. Carla was sixty-nine and she had spent the morning helping her grandson build a sandcastle at the community pool. She said: "Annette. I am not telling you the foot care and the supplement are why Carla came back. I am telling you that Carla had been avoiding the things in her life that made her show her feet, and that after she started both, she stopped avoiding them. There is something underneath the avoiding that I do not have a name for. The foot care and the supplement and the conversation we had on our back porch three years ago all happened around the same time." She said: "I am one sister on a bench behind a church hall. I am one story." She gave me her phone number on a piece of paper she had in her pocketbook. She wrote the name of the supplement underneath the phone number. She said: "Annette. Have Harriet talk to Dr. Pellegrini. Take the treatment conversation seriously this time. Have the doctor bless the supplement around it. Then call me." We hugged on the bench. I drove home from the funeral that afternoon with the piece of paper in my purse. I sat in my driveway for twenty minutes before I went inside. I went inside. Harriet was in her recliner. The news was on at low volume. I sat down on the couch across from her. I said: "Hattie. I need to talk to you. Will you mute the news?" She muted the news. I told her about Pauline. About Carla. About the bench behind the church hall. I told her I had been watching the sandals for three years. I told her I had been looking at her notebook on the mornings when she was in the shower. I told her I had not been saying anything for two and a half years. I told her I was sorry. She listened to all of it. When I was done, she was quiet for a long time. Then she said: "Annette. I have not been telling you what happened at the edge of the pool that first July." She told me. She said she had looked down at her feet at the edge of the pool that morning and had seen how thick and yellow the nails had gotten. She had not been sure what it was at first. It had not been pain. It had been more like a shame she had not been sure she could hide anymore. She had been afraid someone would see. She had not gone barefoot at the pool again because she had been afraid someone would look at her feet. She said: "Annette. I have not been telling you because I have not wanted you to worry. I have been telling myself the notebook and the edge of the pool were not connected. I have known they were. I have been afraid of them." She started crying in her recliner. I went over and sat on the arm of the recliner. I put my arms around her. She put her arms around my waist. We sat like that for a long time. I said: "Hattie. Will you call Dr. Pellegrini on Monday? Will you have me come with you?" She said: "Annette. I will." We went to Dr. Pellegrini that Friday. Dr. Pellegrini has been Harriet's doctor for thirteen years. She is a careful woman. About our age. The kind of doctor who looks at her patient first and the chart second. Harriet told her about the edge of the pool. I had not heard Harriet tell anyone about the edge of the pool before. Dr. Pellegrini listened. She said: "Harriet. Thank you for telling me. I am going to look at the nails today. I want to take a sample and confirm it is fungus before we do anything else. I want to make sure we know exactly what we are dealing with before we have the treatment conversation." She took the sample that morning. She scheduled the follow-up for the following Tuesday. The sample came back confirming fungus. There was nothing else structurally wrong with the nails. It was onychomycosis, deep in the nail bed. Dr. Pellegrini called us into her office the Friday after the sample. She said: "Harriet. The nails are fungal. What you have been seeing on your feet is consistent with the pattern we have been watching for four years. The infection has been spreading. The body knows. The body is asking you to take it seriously." She told us about the options. She told us about the oral antifungal, terbinafine, and what it could do and what it could not do. She told us about the liver monitoring it would require. She told us about the lacquers that rarely penetrate the thick nails. She told us how she would monitor. She told us about the choice honestly. She told us she wanted to do a six-week check-in and a twelve-week check-in whatever Harriet decided. I told her about Pauline at the funeral. I told her about Carla. I told her about the supplement. I asked her whether she would be comfortable with Harriet adding it. Dr. Pellegrini said: "I have been hearing about oregano oil and black seed oil for fungal issues for a few years from a handful of my patients. The idea is sensible. It goes in from the inside. It is in the additive layer. It does not replace the foot care. The two things are doing different jobs. I am comfortable with Harriet adding it. Given her worry about the liver risk of the oral pill, I understand wanting to start with the gentler layer and the daily care." She told us to keep up the diligent foot care first. She told us to add the supplement a couple of days later. Harriet decided to hold off on the oral pill and give the daily care and the supplement time first, with Dr. Pellegrini watching. I ordered two bottles of Orgatics from the website that night. Two because I had been planning to start it myself too. The bottles arrived three days later. Harriet kept up her diligent foot care starting that Friday. We both started the Orgatics the following Monday. Two softgels each with a glass of water at night. She did not change anything else. I did not change anything else. I want to tell you what happened over the next twelve weeks. I am not going to make a claim about what caused what. I am going to tell you what happened in the order it happened. The first thing was the morning mirror. About a week and a half in, the skin at the base of the big toenail looked a little less angry. Harriet wrote it in the notebook. She showed me the notebook at the breakfast table. She had not shown me the notebook in years. She said: "Annette. Look." I looked. The cuticle looked a little pinker than the average she had been seeing. She said: "I do not know if this is the foot care finally catching or if it is the supplement or if it is something else. I am going to keep watching." I said: "Hattie. I am going to watch with you now." She kept watching. I watched with her. By the end of week four, there was a thin band of clearer nail growing in at the cuticle, a noticeable amount clearer than anything she had seen in over a year. I am not going to give you the specific measurements. The specific measurements are between Harriet and Dr. Pellegrini. I will tell you the new growth came in a place Harriet had not seen on her feet in a long time. She kept writing it in the notebook. We looked at the notebook together at the breakfast table every morning. About three weeks in, on a Friday evening, Carla called Harriet. Carla had been calling every Friday for two and a half years. That Friday Harriet picked up the phone. She said: "Carla. Yes. I will come to the rec center tomorrow." Carla was quiet on the phone for a moment. Then Carla said: "Harriet. I will pick you up at five thirty." Carla picked Harriet up at five thirty in the morning the next Saturday. I made Harriet a thermos of coffee. She had her swim bag. She had the swimsuit she had not worn in two and a half years. She hugged me at the front door. She said: "Annette. I am going to the pool." I said: "Hattie. Have a good morning." Carla's car was in our driveway. Harriet walked down to the car. She got in. I watched the car back out of the driveway. I went inside and made myself a second cup of coffee. I called Pauline at seven in the morning. She picked up on the first ring. She said: "Annette. Are they at the pool?" I said: "Pauline. They are." She started crying on the phone. I cried with her. Harriet came home at noon. She had swum for an hour. She rinsed off in the driveway hose. She sat at the kitchen table with me eating the sandwiches I had made. She said: "Annette. The pool had not changed. Carla had not changed." She paused. She said: "I had been the thing that had changed. I had been telling myself my feet had made the pool impossible. The pool had been the pool the whole time." She held my hand across the table. We did not say anything else about it. Around week eight, Harriet went to the salon. She went to get a pedicure. I heard her calling to make the appointment. I had not heard Harriet call the salon in two years. I went to the doorway. She was on the phone with the front desk. She stopped. She said: "Annette. Stay there. I am going to do this." She made the appointment. She went to the salon that afternoon for about an hour. She came back with her feet done. She sat down in her recliner. She was a little nervous about someone having seen her feet. But not as nervous as she had been telling herself for three years she would be. She said: "Annette. The salon is just a salon. She saw the new growth at the cuticle before she saw anything else." I said: "Hattie. I know." The first Saturday in July was the structural payoff of the year. Harriet had been keeping up her foot care and the supplement for ten weeks. She had been at the pool five Saturdays out of the seven Saturdays since she had started. She had been back to the salon two more times after the first time. She had been showing her own feet. The clear band at the cuticle had grown to a place that had made Dr. Pellegrini smile at the six-week check-in. The first Saturday in July came. Harriet came down to breakfast at seven thirty. She sat down at the kitchen counter and looked at her feet in the little mirror. She wrote the note in the notebook. She said: "Annette. I am going up to my closet." She went up to her closet. She came back about ten minutes later carrying her good leather sandals. I had not seen Harriet carry those sandals out of the closet in three years. She set the sandals by the front door. I came into the kitchen with two glasses of lemonade. She took one of the lemonades. She said: "Annette. I want to be honest with you about something. I am going to wear the sandals to the barbecue today. I am going to sit on the deck with my feet out. I am not going to pretend my nails are perfect. They are not perfect yet. The nails still have a way to go and the doctor and I both know it. But there is enough clear growth now that I am not going to hide." She paused. She said: "Annette. I am not the woman with the feet I had at fifty. I am the woman with the feet I want to be at sixty-seven. There is a difference. I am at peace with the difference." I said: "Hattie. So am I." She put on the sandals. She walked out to the deck. She sat down with her feet out in the sun. She stayed like that. She was relaxed but not hiding. She was not tucking her feet under the chair. She had been wearing the sandals doing what a swim instructor of sixty-seven who has had a quiet conversation with her body could honestly do. Her granddaughter came over at noon. Harriet still had her do the swimming with the little ones. Harriet stayed on the deck with me. She sat next to me with her lemonade and her sandals on and watched the girl work. She said: "Annette. She is a good kid. I am glad our niece raised her the way she did." I said: "Hattie. I am glad too." At sunset, the string lights over the deck went on. Harriet had the switch in her hand on the porch. She flipped it on. The deck lit up. The table lit up. The little dogwood tree in the corner lit up. Harriet stood on the deck with the switch in her hand and looked at her backyard for a long moment. She said: "Annette. The barbecue looks the way it has looked for thirty-five years." I said: "Hattie. It does." I hugged her on the deck. She held me for a long time. Harriet went back to Dr. Pellegrini at the twelve-week mark. Dr. Pellegrini looked at the nails. Took a new photo. Listened to Harriet describe the last twelve weeks. She sat back in her chair. She said: "Harriet. The clear growth at the cuticle is real. The infection has stopped spreading. The daily care is doing what we wanted it to do. The fact that you are at the pool and in the salon chair and wearing the sandals is supporting everything around the care. Keep doing all of it. Come back at six months." Harriet told her about the first Saturday in July. She told her about the leather sandals. She told her about her granddaughter doing the swimming. She told her about being at peace with the difference between the feet at fifty and the feet at sixty-seven. Dr. Pellegrini smiled. She said: "Harriet. That is exactly the kind of conversation I want you having with your body. Keep having it." I want to be careful here. I am not a doctor. I am not in healthcare. I am one sixty-three-year-old retired elementary school music teacher who watched her sister walk past a pair of sandals in her own closet for three years and who finally sat down on a stone bench behind a church hall with a woman she had never met at a funeral. I do not know for certain what fraction of what changed was the foot care, what fraction was the supplement, what fraction was Harriet finally telling me about the edge of the pool. I know what we added. I know what Harriet stopped pretending about. I know what the mirror has shown. I know what my sister wore in July. I also know we are sixty-three and sixty-seven and there will come a day when no foot care and no supplement and no honest conversation will hold back the slow turning of the years. There will come a day when Harriet will not be at the pool. There will come a day when neither of us will be. I am at peace with that. I am not pretending otherwise. I also know, and I want to say this very clearly, that the daily foot care Dr. Pellegrini recommended is doing the work the care was supposed to do on the nails. The supplement is supporting the layer around the care from the inside. They are different things. Neither one of them would have done what they have done together if Harriet had not finally told me about the edge of the pool. What I am telling you is what we did. What I noticed. What our doctor said about it. That is all. If you are a sister who has been watching her sister walk past a pair of sandals, or a swimsuit, or a beach bag, or a salon door, or a pool ladder for years, and her toenails have been getting worse, and her doctor has been wanting to have a treatment conversation, and you have not been saying anything, here is what I would say. Tell her you have been watching. Take her to her doctor. Have the treatment conversation. Have it honestly. Do not run from it. If her doctor recommends a treatment, take the recommendation seriously. Then, if her doctor agrees it is a sensible thing to add, add the supplement in the additive layer. Around the care. Not instead of it. Do not subtract anything. Do not change anything else. Give it a few weeks before you decide anything. Bodies are different. Some women notice something within the first few weeks. For Harriet, the first thing I noticed was the skin at the base of the big toenail looking less angry around the start of week two. That is the whole story. P.S. I ran into a woman from my old school last month at the grocery store. Her name is Maureen. She had been the fourth-grade teacher at the school where I taught music for the last fifteen years of my career. She had retired the year after I did. She was at the produce. She said: "Annette. You look different. What have you been doing?" I told her. I told her about Pauline at the funeral. I told her about Harriet and the sandals. She listened. She said: "Annette. My sister has been fighting toenail fungus for six years. She has been quietly avoiding the lake house. We have a lake house. We have had it for thirty years. She had not been down to the water in two summers." She asked me if she could call Pauline's number to ask her about the supplement. I told her to call her own doctor first. I told her to ask her doctor whether adding it would be sensible. She called her doctor that Friday. Her doctor said it was a sensible thing to add to her sister's care. She started the next Monday. She called me last weekend. She said: "Annette. She went down to the water with our grandson on Saturday. She had not been in the water in two summers. She wore her sandals down the dock herself." I said: "Maureen. I am glad." That is how this works. A woman at a funeral sits down on a stone bench with you and tells you about her sister. You go home and you finally talk to your sister about an edge of the pool she has been carrying alone for three years. You both go to the doctor. She keeps up the care. She adds the supplement. Three months later she is wearing the sandals. The next year another sister asks you what you have been doing. She calls her own doctor. Her sister adds it. She goes down to the water with their grandson. You sit at your kitchen table and you write the story down for the next sister. P.P.S. Here is what I would tell you to do if you are thinking about trying the supplement. Check with the doctor or pharmacist first. That is the most important step. Especially if she is already on a treatment or about to start one. Tell the doctor everything. Then take two softgels with a glass of water at night. Do not change anything else. Just add this. The supplement does not replace any treatment a doctor has prescribed. Give it a few weeks before you decide anything. Some women notice something within the first few weeks, a little more clear growth at the cuticle, a little more willingness to show a foot, a little more honesty about an edge of the pool she has been telling herself was nothing. Others take longer. Be patient with her body. P.P.P.S. Orgatics has a 90-day money-back guarantee. If you are not satisfied for any reason, every penny back. No questions asked. That is a sensible policy for a supplement. It gives you time to actually see whether it helps. P.P.P.P.S. Orgatics is a small operation. They wild-harvest and bottle on their own schedule. I keep an extra bottle in the house just in case. I started taking it myself the same Monday Harriet did. I am sixty-three. I had been carrying the edge of the pool for three years too. I had been watching the sandals for three years and pretending I had not been. The edge of the pool has been quieter in my own head since the bench behind the church hall. I do not know if that is the supplement. I do not know if it is the conversation Harriet and I had in the living room with the news on mute. I do not know if it is the lights coming on the first Saturday in July. I know all three of those things happened. The good leather sandals are back on the rack in the closet where Harriet had lined them up fifteen years ago. I walk past my own closet sometimes when I am putting away the laundry. I do not feel anything when I walk past my sandals now. That is what I want to tell you about. The supplement is one thing. The foot care is another thing. A sister who walks up to her closet on the first Saturday in July and carries her own sandals down to the front door is a third thing. It is the thing I had been afraid I had been losing. It is the thing that has come back. https://tryorgatics.com/pages/nail-fungus Individual experiences vary. These statements have not been evaluated by the FDA. This product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease.