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Sunday morning. 10:32 AM. The back pew on the left-hand aisle at First United Methodist Church of Fayetteville, Arkansas. A 119-year-old white-clapboard sanctuary on East Dickson Street with stained-glass windows my late husband Marvin's grandfather had paid the eastern panel of in 1947. Pew thirty-one. The last pew before the narthex. The pew I have been sitting in alone since March 14, 2023. The morning we buried Marvin two days after his stroke and I walked past the pew Marvin and I had shared since 1974 and slid into the back row because I did not yet have the strength to sit where he was supposed to be sitting next to me. It is March 9, 2025. The third Sunday of Lent. The pastor. Reverend Theodore Jenkins, 52, who has been at First Methodist since 2019. Is in the middle of his homily on the woman at the well in John chapter four. His voice is coming from a wireless lapel microphone routed through the same 1998 sound system the trustees voted not to replace in the 2024 budget. The sanctuary holds 280 people. There are 134 people in the pews this morning. The choir loft is to the left of the altar with eleven robed members and an organist. The HVAC unit in the basement directly below pew thirty-one is on a thermostat that kicks the blower on every nine minutes and runs for three. I am 73 years old. I am the widow of Marvin Whitfield, who taught seventh-grade math at Fayetteville Junior High School for thirty-four years. I have been a member of First Methodist since 1974, when Marvin and I moved here from Pine Bluff so he could take the job. I sang in the chancel choir from 1976 to 2019. I taught the third-grade Sunday school class on the second floor of the education wing from 1981 to 2014. I served on the altar guild from 1989 to 2022, the year my hearing started slipping enough that I could not catch Reverend Howard's instructions on the radio earpiece I was supposed to wear during communion setup. I am sitting in pew thirty-one on March 9, 2025, with my black wool funeral coat folded across my lap because I did not want to leave it on the rack in the narthex where it would smell like the lobby coffee. And I am missing the homily. I am not missing it in pieces. I am missing it the way you miss a train you watched leave the platform. I caught the opening Scripture reading at 10:14 AM. Reverend Jenkins reads Scripture from the lectern, four feet from the lapel mic, and the lectern is at the center of the chancel. At 10:23 the choir sang an arrangement of "Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing" that I caught the first verse of and lost during the second. At 10:28 Reverend Jenkins moved from the lectern to the pulpit on the left of the chancel, and the moment he stepped to the pulpit, the lapel mic angle changed by about thirty degrees, and the back pew became a black box. From 10:28 to 10:32 — four minutes of the homily I had been waiting for since the bulletin announcement on Wednesday — I have caught the words "Samaria," "well," "thirst," "living water," and "five husbands." I have missed everything in between. The parts that explain why the words matter. I have a small spiral-bound notebook in my lap on top of the wool coat. I bought it at the Walgreens on College Avenue in May 2023 to keep track of what I was missing. The page for March 9, 2025, in my own handwriting, looks like this: 10:14 — opening Scripture caught 10:23 — first verse hymn caught 10:28 — pulpit move 10:32 — Samaria / well / thirst / living water / five husbands 10:34 — missed 10:36 — missed 10:38 — missed (audible laughter from front pews — joke I did not catch) 10:41 — missed (Reverend's voice dropped — emotional beat — visible) 10:43 — missed (front pews crying — I do not know why) 10:46 — closing — caught "amen" The page is the same shape as every other Sunday in the notebook. I have been keeping the notebook for ninety-six weeks. The first Sunday I started keeping it was the Sunday after Marvin's funeral, when I realized I had not caught a word of the eulogy our daughter Rebecca had written for her own father. The notebook is the reason I am sitting in pew thirty-one at 10:32 AM on March 9, 2025, with my eyes closed and my hands folded over the wool coat and a single tear running down the right side of my face that nobody in the sanctuary can see because nobody in the sanctuary turns around to look at pew thirty-one. I refused to let my mother's silence become mine. My mother — Constance Hadley, born 1922 in Pine Bluff, schoolteacher for thirty-eight years — went deaf in stages between 1979 and 1984 and refused every aid the doctor offered her because, in her own words to me at the kitchen table in 1982, "people who wear those things look like they have given up." She died in a Pine Bluff nursing home in 1992. She had not sung in her own church choir in eight years. She had not heard her own grandchildren say her name in five. At her funeral my older sister Lorraine held my hand at the graveside in the Pine Bluff cemetery and said, "Constance. She stopped being mother when she stopped singing. The body just kept walking." I was 41. I swore on the cemetery grass that what happened to her would not happen to me with Rebecca and Rebecca's two children. And then on the third Sunday of Lent in 2025 I sat in pew thirty-one and watched it begin happening. Twenty-four years after Marvin and I had moved into the four-bedroom on Mission Boulevard with the rose bushes I had planted in 1975. The walk from pew thirty-one to the narthex on March 9 was forty-one steps. The walk from the narthex to my Camry in the parking lot behind the education wing was sixty-two steps. The drive home to Mission Boulevard was four point one miles. I sat in the driveway with the engine off for nineteen minutes. I went inside. I sat at the kitchen table — the same oak table Marvin and I had bought from the Penney's furniture department in 1976 — and I opened the spiral notebook to a blank page and I wrote one sentence in my own handwriting: "If I do not fix this by Easter I will stop going to First Methodist." That was the sentence that started the spending. Tuesday March 11, 2025. I drove to the audiology office at Washington Regional Medical Center on North College Avenue. The audiologist was a young woman named Dr. Patel, 34 years old, polite, a graduate of the University of Arkansas for Medical Sciences. The audiogram took fifty-three minutes. The quote at the end was $5,210 for a Phonak Audeo Lumity pair plus a $385 "fitting protocol" plus a $245 annual "wellness subscription." Total first-year cost $5,840. CareCredit application at 26.99% APR. I told Dr. Patel I would think about it. I drove home and sat at Marvin's old desk in the back bedroom and wrote the numbers in the notebook. I could not stop thinking about the word "subscription." Wednesday March 19. The Miracle-Ear in the strip mall on East Joyce Boulevard, two doors down from the Hobby Lobby where I buy my craft supplies. Forty-seven-minute "lifestyle audit" with a "hearing consultant" named Brent who wore a Razorbacks polo shirt. He asked me about my late husband, my church attendance, my granddaughters, and my weekly bunco group. The quote at the end was $4,690 for the mid-tier pair and $6,180 for the premium tier and a $310 "personalization fee" and a CareCredit application. I folded the printout in quarters and drove past the Hobby Lobby without going in. Thursday March 27. The Costco Hearing Aid Center inside the Costco on Joyce Boulevard. A nice young man named Kevin who was a graduate student at the University of Arkansas. Thirty-nine-minute appointment. Kirkland Signature pair quoted at $1,499 per ear, six-week fitting, four follow-up appointments at the same Costco that I would need to drive to on a Thursday afternoon. The same Thursday afternoon I take my friend Beatrice to her dialysis appointment in Springdale. Total $2,998 plus the entire spring of Thursday afternoons. Saturday April 5. My next-door neighbor Daphne. 71, retired Walmart corporate accountant, married to a man named Carl who had stopped wearing his hearing aids in 2022. Knocked on my front door with a Ziploc bag of Carl's discontinued Resounds. Carl had passed in February. Daphne wanted to give them to someone who could use them. I wore them to the early service at First Methodist the next morning. They whistled the moment I cupped my ear during the responsive reading. I gave them back to Daphne in the kitchen on Tuesday April 8 along with a coffee cake I had baked. She cried. Wednesday April 16. The Walgreens on College Avenue. A $189 OTC "personal sound amplifier" in a clamshell package the pharmacy tech had to cut open for me with kitchen scissors. I wore it to the Maundy Thursday service the next night. Reverend Jenkins's homily on Judas's kiss was rendered as a wall of static with the word "Judas" emerging once every fifteen seconds like a man yelling from the bottom of a well. I returned the device on Good Friday morning. The Walgreens deducted a $28 "sanitation fee." Easter Sunday April 20. The day my March 9 notebook sentence had warned me about. I sat in pew thirty-one. I caught the Scripture reading at 10:14. I caught the first verse of "Christ the Lord Is Risen Today" at 10:23. Reverend Jenkins stepped to the pulpit at 10:28. The homily. Easter homily, the most important sermon of the church year, in the sanctuary where Marvin's grandfather had paid for the eastern stained-glass panel in 1947. Was a black box from 10:28 to 10:46. I caught "tomb," "empty," "Mary," "he is risen indeed." I missed the rest. I cried in pew thirty-one with my black wool coat folded across my lap and I did not stay for the coffee fellowship in the education wing. I drove home. I sat in the driveway for thirty-one minutes. Easter Monday April 21. I called my daughter Rebecca, 46, an accountant in Tulsa. I told her about the notebook. I told her about pew thirty-one. I told her about the $5,840 Phonak and the $6,180 Miracle-Ear and the $2,998 Costco and the Carl-Resounds and the Walgreens. I told her about Mama Constance and the funeral grass in Pine Bluff in 1992. Rebecca cried on the phone for twelve minutes. Then she said one sentence — "Mama, your ears aren't broken. The signal path is." Rebecca had been researching for three weeks since I had cancelled bunco the previous Thursday because I had stopped catching the women's voices across the card table. She had found a page. She emailed me a link. 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Week 3 — May 12 through 18. Wednesday-night Bible study at First Methodist. Twelve people in the parlor. Reverend Jenkins sitting four feet from me on the loveseat. I caught the full hour. I asked two questions. I caught his answers. I caught the woman across the parlor. Mavis Larkin, 78, who I had not had a real conversation with in two years. Telling a story about her great-niece's wedding in Branson. Week 4 — May 19 through 25. Sunday May 25 — the Memorial Day weekend service at First Methodist. I sat in pew thirty-one out of habit. Reverend Jenkins read Scripture at 10:14. Choir at 10:23. Pulpit at 10:28. From 10:28 to 10:46 I caught the full homily. Eighteen minutes on the parable of the lost sheep with three jokes I caught before the front pews laughed. I wrote in my notebook at 10:48 — "caught the entire homily." I went to the coffee fellowship in the education wing for the first time in fourteen months. Reverend Jenkins came over to me at the coffee urn and asked me how my morning had been. I told him. He took my hand in both of his and said, "Constance — I have missed you." I cried at the coffee urn. Mavis Larkin handed me a paper napkin from the stack. Week 6 — June 8. The annual Whitfield family reunion at the picnic shelter at Devil's Den State Park. Forty-three Whitfields. Rebecca's two girls. Olivia (nine) and Eleanor (six). Who had not spoken to me at a family reunion since 2023. Eleanor came over to my picnic-bench end with a paper plate of watermelon and asked me what kind of bird had just landed on the railing. I told her it was a barn swallow. She asked me how I knew. I told her. We talked for nine minutes about birds. Rebecca took a picture of us from across the shelter and texted it to me that night with three crying-face emojis and the words "Mama — six minutes and Eleanor would not look at you in 2023." Week 8 — June 22. Sunday morning. Pew thirty-one. 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